Thursday, December 20, 2007


And, not a symptom in sight! I went for blood work today to check hormone levels. I will not return to the doctor until 12/31 for my BETA. I am contemplating waiting until 1/2/08, to avoid getting bad news over New Year's. I'll decide that morning. I am assuming I will know if I am pregnant anyway since I was pregnant several months ago.

I am just happy that my Christmas won't be spoiled. I will be able to get through the holiday by hoping there is life growing inside me. The one shining light this Christmas is that I will not be spending it with my eSIL and BIL. I am sooo relieved. I will, however, have to spend three consecutive Sundays with them immediately following including the Christening of their second child. I just can't believe she conceived so easily two times. I really would like to say that she doesn't deserve her good fortune but, that wouldn't be keeping in the holiday spirit. I'll just bite my tongue.

I use to love Christmas. And, maybe one day I will again. But for now -



Melanie said...

I'm with you on the bah humbug. Rudolph can stay on the island of misfit toys as far as I'm concerned. Grinching aside, very, very good thoughts for you in the few weeks. Wouldn't that be a lovely way to start the new year!

Lori said...

Oh, sorry it's not looking good.

I'm holding you in my thoughts this season. Hoping you get some good news soon.

Swim said...

bah humbug... I'm feeling that too. Dealing with IF through the holidays sucks.

I'm hoping the IUI will give you good results this time.

Schatzi said...

Sending you good thoughts for your beta.